The other day I was staying at my in-laws house and saw myself in a different mirror than I usually look it. It was full body and really for the first time I got a glimpse of my full body with my surgical scars and bald head. I've seen half body where both were present, but somehow this felt different.

It's weird to look at yourself but not recognize yourself.

I know the scars will fade and the hair will grow back, but it really is strange for the time being. I wrote a few weeks back about how during treatment you aren't really in control of your body. You show up when they tell you to, sit while they put stuff you don't understand into you, and then go to any other appointments with other doctors that you recommend.

All-in-all, it makes you feel very alien.